Whatever You Come Across — Go Beyond

by Melody Jean

I haven’t written in quite some time. With that I can’t know what’s to come as I sit here typing. 

What appears will be whatever travels from my brain, or my subconscious, or my consciousness into this, here, blog post.

Existence That Happens

I’m in a happenstance state of existence. No right or wrong here, it’s what is.

I was pondering yesterday – why does everything always seems to happen at once?

I then thought. Well, that’s easy – because everything is always happening!

From Highs to Lows and Pain to Peace

I’ve learned so very much over this past year … from pain to peace and literally back again. So many high points to note, and so many low, lows too.

Blessing of Beauty

I was blessed with beauty this past year. It came to me in the shape of another human being. 

When we first met, and throughout our entire early courtship, I was convinced our souls connected. Sounds deep, I know <wink, wink>.

Perhaps I’m a romantic. Heck, I am a romantic. Though to most, I am anything but.

As I reflect, though, I can’t help, but to remember how I adored his physical presence too … his smile and his laugh. Oh how I love both. 

It was mutual, the interconnectedness.

I felt it grow deeper, into a loving, best-friendship as time passed on.

Trust, companionship, and attraction, a yummy combo. Well, to me, anyway. 

Yes, I was blessed with beauty.

Blessings of Ugliness

As I come to grips with everything, I realize that I was blessed with ugliness too.

It came to me in the form of sickness, disease and the loss of loved ones via death and separation.

I lost three very instrumental people in my life in a very short period of time.

It’s uncanny in some ways. While two left (me), and the other passed on to greater things, they all hurt tremendously. Differently, but all immensely.

I say  that I am blessed, even when it’s ugliness, because, I have been entertaining a notion of late. It’s appeared time and again. 

The notion? Be grateful for everything. Even what we deem bad.  

When the Show of Shit is Great

At times I think this shit-show can’t possibly get any worse.

Yet, someone I was close with always says “never say that, it can always get worse.” And you know what? He’s right. It can, haha!

But that’s okay. Ugliness is a blessing too … 

Existence of Transition – Call me CrA’zy

A part of me believes I’m in a transitory existence, between spiritual states, if you will.

Call me crA’zy if you want. I’ve been called worse 😉

But, yes, truth here. I think I am.

Yet, I don’t need to go it alone – this transition, you see. Nor do I want to.

Taking the Scary Out of Scary 

I think I’ve finally come to some conclusion of what’s happening to me.  

With that I am less scared, thank God. 

Less frightened of the disconnectedness I feel sometimes. 

Man, I feel so very distant from everything, and everyone at times. Out of place if you will.

Yet, other times I feel so, so connected.

As if love is pouring-out through my veins, into the streets engulfing everyone around me. Kind of like “The Blob” from that old, scary movie. :) 

Yes, this is the state I’m in.

The End Note (for Now)

So with those thoughts (unsure if they make any sense what-so-ever), I will leave you with this quote by Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj, which sums up my existence.

In the meantime, be well seekers … until next time.

“There are always moments when one feels empty and estranged. Such moments are most desirable, for it means the soul has cast its moorings and is sailing for distant places. This is detachment — when the old is over and the new has not yet come. If you are afraid, the state may be distressing, but there is really nothing to be afraid of. Remember the instruction: Whatever you come across — go beyond.”  —Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj 

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Stewart

Beautiful!!

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Melody Jean

many thanks to you! love you, pop.

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